In this moment

from that second

You have totally killed me

my hope and dreams

our future.

all vanished in a thought

looking at the ring of promise-

I feel hopeless

Probably helpless

nothing can help

not even doraemon

or green stuff.

Looking at the things we have in common

I cannot believe that its the end

8 months of the love from you

I realise it cannot be forever

I really cannot help, but cry. The only thing that I can do now, and the thing that I can only do at home. Many things have caused me to me stronger on the outside and weaker inside. I really hurts, not only the pain from the broken heart, but also the bits and pieces of the heart, piercing into other parts of me. Emotionally, physically and mentally, all I think about is you. Never expected this day to come, never. It came in the end. At last it came, stopping your sufferings. I thank God for you. I thank God for this experience, a heart wrecking experience that made you hate me. It made you a much better person, using me. I hate this, but I love it too, because you will not have to suffer with me, you will not have to bear with the annoying Regina. Not even Regina, regina.

I cannot let mum know that this happened. And yet I don't know how to tell her. I will not let her worry about me. I cannot. I have to be independent and not be her burden. I hate being a burden to everyone or anyone. I hate it. But I still thank God for creating me. I know I have a purpose to live, just that I have not found it. Thank God for granting me salvation, saving my life. The only one that I can trust, the only one that loves me FOREVER, not just eight months ,is God.

Looking at your contact on my phone

leaving behind, only memories

not even love

and you ended this with a " I got nothing to say okay. I won't talk to you anymore. Enjoy your turkey trip."

and did you know that it gave my heart a slash?